Esaes:Essais 2

Every sunset brings a lot of questions that are worth pondering. What awaits the night? What will the darkness bring? Will the sun still rise up for another day? Indeed. We all know that a new morning will certainly come no matter what. What we don't know is if we will be able to see that new ray of sunshine piercing through the thin sheet of curtains covering our bedroom windows. Nobody really knows... Just like every turn of a new year. Nobody knows what lies ahead and what's going to happen. Nobody knows where the tides will bring us and what crossroads are to take and Nobody even knows if we will live the entirety of the new year. What really matters is that when the sun kisses the face of the ocean, We have that brave heart to battle the uncertainties of the night and the shadows of the past. That before we close our eyes, we have that high spirit to look forward to a new day and the faith to believe in the beau...

When things become monotonous and you're starting to burn out, try something different! Change for the better, play better, set bigger goals. Start right, make the right choice. Discover and unleash your potentials. Work with pride. Seize the opportunity to grow. Perform- make your own way, make your own mark. Broaden your horizon. Let your dreams and lifestyle soar to the sky but keep your feet on the ground. Recharge your body & soul. Take the road back to God & never give uP following your purpose-driven life. Make your dreams come true. Then you will see your life will unfold beautifully.

Curtains up Audience clap. Deceptive spotlight Illuminates the night. A glamorous convention Standing ovation. Lively music A night full of magic! I am the star- Personality bizarre Talent unique Every performance fantastic! I make them smile I really try. No dull moments Just merriment. Curtains down Audience flown. Final vow End of the show. Back to reality Unmask the real me. No more claps My world stopped. Behind the spotlight What a gloomy sight. Tears run down I'm a lonely clown. Making others laugh 'Though I have a lonely life. Tired and sick My heart wants to break. Single smile Hides a thousand lies. Pretensions unveiled, My true color revealed. I'm not a fool, I just want to be cool. Yes, I silently cry, After they smile...

Every child's conception and birth is God's amazing masterpiece. A beautiful journey of growth and development. A testimony of genuine innocence. Naivete'. Looking intently at you without any judgement and prejudice. Smiling 'til your heart melts out. Sleeping peacefully, Believing that a guardian angel is watching over him. His purposeful cry is only understood by a motherly heart. His mannerisms are simply amazing! They are not annoying at all, they bring happiness to our life. What a blessing indeed is a child's birth in this earth. And we are very humbled to have our first-fruit child.

We have always wondered What is the essence of our existence? From a little girl and boy. we blossomed into full-pledged adults. We dreamed and persevered until we become who we are and where we are today. We thought that was all! But God intervened and orchestrated our life's story. From just classmates, we became good friends. Then lovers and finally as couples. God did not delay the answer to what we always pray. God gave us you! The blood of our blood, the flesh of our flesh. And now, we finally knew. The real essence of our existence is to be instruments for another life on earth. So our child, May you become the best version of us and May you become What God has planned you to be.

Kiss me. Make me feel that I'm a human, that I am loved, that I am part of this world regardless of my color and kind. Make my dry lips feel the sweetness of acceptance, the warmth of belongingness just don't kiss and tell, please. Kiss me. Grab the chance while I fantasize, while euphoria keeps me afloat and elation denies the truth. Before my senses break the chain to the neurons in my brain. Before I kiss the earth and lose my worth. Kiss me.

Sometimes, you get shattered into smaller pieces. You feel consumed and incomplete. Flightless. Some people in your life detach their knot and fly away. You bleed. You think you are all alone. Desolate. But just smile and keep living. Don't stop writing your story and keep dreaming. Because all those little things and all those nothingness will be replaced with bigger and bolder wings that will help you soar higher and farther. And you will realize that all those people who fled and made you bleed are never and will never be part of your bigger journey. Grow your own wings. You are the captain of your own flight.

...been to places we used to be but I can't appreciate the beauty... ... met and talked with our old friends but I can't feel their presence... ... listened to our songs but I'm deafened by anguish I keep for so long... ... read the letters in my box but every line crashes my heart  like an ax... ... relieved the past through our pictures but all of them lack color and splendor... ... there's   ONE PIECE I MISS... And baby it’s YOU.

In the stillness of the night when everybody's out of sight, I started to cry while asking myself a million "Whys?" Why should I suffer the pains of life and become a failure when all I did is to strive? Why should I live with parents who can't give the love and comfort that I need? I'm yearning since I was a kid. Why should I experience this- to love and give my best to the girl whom I thought was right but all I got was a shattered heart? Why should I trust and believe that friendships last only to realize that they have their own lives? Why should I taste everybody's bitter hate. All I need is acceptance, Why can't they give me a chance? Why me? Why me? Of all people on this world should kiss the earth Just to end my agony?

Know yourself. Be gentle but fearless. Speak up with confidence and humor. Learn to be firm yet kind. Love life. Love its good and bad side. Connect. Don't miss the chance to discover people and places. Work at your best. Leave being idle behind. Be grateful. Appreciate what you already have. Watch your dream come true. Don't give up until you become the man you want to be.  

RENEW YOUR PURPOSE IN LIFE.  Draw closer to God in prayer... HAVE A PURE HEART.  Be beautiful inside and out... BE UNIQUE.  Feel free to be you... SHARPEN YOUR MEMORY.  Think gentle, think mild... KNOW YOUR ALLY.  Stay out of trouble. Stay in control even when you are having a hard time... DO NOT PLEASE OTHER PEOPLE.  Live for all the right reasons. Be simple... LOVE.  Awaken your heart and love the real person that will truly win your fidelity... SMILE.  Entertain your challenges with a fun attitude... DREAM ALL ABOUT LIFE'S VISIONS.  Focus your attention on the lighter side of life...

"Hello love..." That's what you silently speak whenever our eyes meet. The sweet smiles behind your lips memories that lull me to sleep.  I feel like in heaven whenever I see you, a lovely, captivating maiden. I'm love struck! I must admit. We shared sweet and idle moments and hard and tiring days as we mend the weaves of our dreams knitted by the bond of our love. But years passed, I've realized I'm not your perfect match. This will surely hurt and break our hearts But I have to say "Good-bye..."

I'M PUZZLED. LIFE IS FULL OF UNCERTAINTIES...  We never know what lies ahead. We are smiling and laughing and dancing at the top of our spirit today, but we never know if we will still be doing the same merriment tomorrow, and for the other days to unfold... Is this the real face of life? Or is this the life we reap out of what we do? We can't tell... I can never tell...  ONLY GOD KNOWS  as they always say... But,  IS THERE REALLY GOD?  Surely, those who are pious and highly religious will get mad at me upon hearing me say this... Questioning the existence and divine ability of their God... Or maybe, they will just ignore me... Who am I in their lives anyway. I believe that what only matters to them is that they are living at their own best... And in this age of self- centeredness, it's a waste of precious time sparing attention to someone that makes no sense to our living... Personally, I have made a lot of things that broke others fragile hear...

RENEW YOUR SPIRIT.  BE GOOD TO YOUR INNER SELF . Be reminded that conscience talks. SET YOURSELF FREE . Look into your heart. WORD WISE . Be wary of silence. BE GRATEFUL.  GET INVOLVED . Be present, 'cause everyone needs one. SHARE . The more you give, the more you shall receive. SAVE . Prepare ahead. MAKE UP. MAKE OVER and MAKE OUT.  DREAM INTO ACTION . Make it happen in God's most perfect time.

My memories are spinning back; going round and round like the hands of the clock... Back to the days when you're still my fairy-tale princess whom I met at the rose-laden hill... Captivated by your beauty the light of my every day... You let me live in your colorful world... Enchanted and inspired by your genuine words of faith, hope and  love... You let me dream  a brighter future- an exciting journey together... But I stopped- Living and loving... I wandered away.. Blinded by fancy beauty; deafened by flowery words; drowned in this chaotic world; and mislead by false hopes... My fairy- tale princess let my world spin again... Take my eyes away from this world... Take me back to the world we once own... Tie colorful strings to the hands of the clock- that will guide me back to you... in your beautiful world and let us weave more memories together again...

"Lord, I'm only a little jar shaped from a humble clay. Fragile, simple and flawed... But I will always look up to You and  open my heart... Fill me with Your water of life; wine of faith; oil of anointing; perfume of love and honey of abundance... I will store these blessings inside me and nurture them. I will use them to strengthen me and polish my flaws... Then break me at Your most perfect time to serve Your purpose..."

The memories of the past keep spinning in my head like colorful strands of thread that encourage me to live. My youthful innocence spin like playful strings. I thought life was just a game and colored by good- nights' dreams. My family's support when I was afraid to face the world. Their words of wisdom whenever I felt down and doomed. My friends' pat on the back when days were like nights. Their guidance and encouragements which led me to where I am. My lover's kisses and sweet promises that nurtured my heart and colored my life. An old man told me I will weave some more when I become older. The strings of memories will become more colorful and longer as I grow bolder and wiser. Indeed, more memories spun but most of them kept me tangled. Black strings of testings and trials Left me cryin' and dyin'. I am a man now, a kid no more I should work in order to be better. No more playful strings I should pass life's testings and pruning. My friends are on their o...

I asked for my freedom and you gave it. I forced myself out into the open and walked away. I felt happy and carefree. That was what I thought. I moved out from your prison heart. But I am still in chains. Tangled in the bitterness of broken vows and shattered memories. I am running around this dark dungeon of the past. The shadows of regrets grab me back where we used to be. I am following a light but it's fancy it flickered and faded when I am about to reach for it. I am following a path farther from you. But it leads me to nowhere 'til I feel like running back to you but I can't. I am hearing voices. They all sing of my failures and mistakes. They whisper to me my old promises that are all broken. I am a dead meat. The freedom I wished for makes me a slave of the past, a loser of today and a hopeless dreamer of tomorrow. The shadows of broken vows and wasted dreams, the bi...

“Be strong and courageous!  Let’s fight hard for our people and the cities of God.  And may The LORD’s will be done.” 1 Chronicles 19: 13 TEV Reflection 1: The Word These were the words of Joab - King David’s commander of royal military when they fought with the Ammonites and Arameans. Being a military commander, Joab knows how hard it is to fight in a battle. He knows that amidst a battle these few things will happen - victory or defeat; death or survival; captivity or freedom and/or freedom with disability; fame or failure. But let us ponder on the powerful words that he pronounced to inspire his troops. 1. "Be strong and courageous” - these words alone are very powerful motivation amidst uncertainty. How can we be strong? Physical preparation, skills preparation, war tactics and/or strategies – very technical but of course, important. How can we be courageous? This will need deeper and more purposeful rooting. Prayer is the best source of courage. It was not mention...

"Remember, I will be with you and protect you wherever you will go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done all that I have promised to you." Genesis 28: 15 TEV Life is full of uncertainties and struggles. We never know what will happen to us, where the tests of time and opportunities will bring us and who will be with us. Jacob fled for his life because his brother Esau was furious with him and was ready to kill him because he believed that Jacob cheated him- first by having his right as a first-born son just for a bowl of bean-soup then by getting their father’s blessings before his death. He risked his life by leaving his family. On his way in the wilderness God appeared to Him in his dream and made a promise that He will bless him. We are like Jacob. In our life, we sacrifice precious things, we tend to become bold and aggressive in order to achieve our dreams and we come to a point where we face life all by ourse...